...gOt the feEl...

exam oh exam~
every single paper i faced... i'll imagine my mom...
every day since studyweek la,, she never mis send me a sms to gimme support n remind me tawakal 2 ALLAH...
x sampai ati nak kecewakan mereka... when facing tension question,, rase berat je mate nak nangis... i'll never disapoint them again!!! no mean for again!!!
ya Allah,, am i too much??? missing u all... wait me this 12nd yap... i'Allah i would reached Terengganu~ missing is so pain au,, huhu,,

Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal

Bila aku gunakan,

kau yang menyangkal

Bagaimana nak kekal

Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda

Bila aku gunakan

Kau yang tak percaya?

bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali

Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri

Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi

Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)

Kaulah derita (bagimu)

Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya

Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa

Bagaimana hendak ku lupa bayangan wajahmu

selalu di depan mata harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu

Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu

Jikalau setiap hari merindu

Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..

Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)

Kaulah derita (bagimu)

Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama

Akan ku biar tiada, ku tetap kan setia

Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama

Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

Kaulah tanda tanya? kau tiada titik noktah

Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

Kaulah tanda tanya?

kau tiada titik noktah

Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

Seandainya kau berada di depan mata

Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata

Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu

Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu

Apalagi memandangku

Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan

Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan?

Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali

Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri

Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi

Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)

Kaulah derita (bagimu)

Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)

Kaulah derita (bagimu)

Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu

Baru kau tahu derita hatiku

Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu

Baru kau ingat derita diriku

Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku

Apa gunanya bahgia

Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu

Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti,

kau mudah sesali

Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri

Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi

Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)

Kaulah derita (bagimu)

Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)

Kaulah derita (bagimu)

Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

ade aku kisah??? ngeEh3~

18/10/2009 ~ a day full of happiness... really glad that day...=D

faja'tu (suddenly) only HE know,, how sad ending that day...T_T

next time cite... really busy... jiddan2~~

p/s: broadband problem... huhuu~~ wish me luck!!! yeah!!!

what I wish is ^_~

who??? who???
ngeEh3~
my billie joe armstrong... =D

wanna duet with them,, but they refuse for...T_T huhuhuuu ^.^
hee~

this white guitar belong to??? mr.'celak'

my birthday on this 16 October who r really mean it,, they would gimme a ticket to Akon this 24... heheheee... bley ek??? as present la...=P lalalaaa~

iftar sana sini...

even this alreaD in 'RAYA' mood,, but because of time constrained b4,, i 've no time to update my melody ni often la... huhuhuuu... every weekend especially,, neither one day its was no space 4 me 2 bukak puasa 2gether with my housemad @ home... 1st weekend wif usraT... then @ alamanda and bla bla... da lupe... ngeh3... after that ade la jgk kat Nilai3... KFC... anak timur... hehee... pelangi senja kot... wif geng2 urusetia n so on... p mai p mai tang 2... ha,, 1more kat Hotel Pasific... jom,, check this out...=P
ngeh3... seronok boh... I Love Free~ =D

wif zaida... lalalaaa~ like hari raye AlreaD

in front otel... that me,, simple only pada malam 2... hehee=D

"who r we???"... "we r de red" ahakz

dish 4 sahur... ^_^ alhamdulillah

jaangan mara ye... -_-

@ nilai3... mee kari plus neslo ais (fabrato)... suddenly,, makcik kedai 2 blanje ABC... e2 suda bagooss... =P

dari kiri,, k.diba,, nabila,, k.mina,, fifa,, n k.anis (lapo ye) =) @ FST bukak puasa dgn Mdm sivaganga...

from left,, (kwn p-qa) sembang dgn dia bagai nak rak,, tapi x tanye name plak... huhuu~ n kat sbelah kanan is p-qa(genius) bdk2 UM...

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ala kadar je... sorang x kurang dari 3 pinggan... lps terawih proced mkn lagi...

this p-qa (shafiqal) bdk sekolah TJ dulu... suddenly meet there... nice2

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MORE CLOSE,, MORE CHALLENGE,, MORE SYG

When we become more closer to HIM,, more ‘exercise’ @ challenge HE would give us... Ya Rabbi... Ya Khabir... Ya Azim... gimme the way 2 solve this complication... Amin... thanx...=)

I know,, this is part of ur ways 2 look at how strong my believe toward YOU... my hope 2 YOU... coz YOU love hamba who ask something from YOU... Allah Almighty...

Likes timbalan dekan FPQS said last weekend... he faced more challenges when he study @ Madinah... about money,, and around 8 years not celebrate eid together wif his family... if me was in her place,, 4 sure da cry me the rever... ahakz... but lastly,, after everything end,, we would aware that,, Allah give all those exercise 2 look how strong the bond between Iman and us... 4 one really adobe that challenges as HIS’s faith 2 us,, would become more beriman and percaya 2 HIM... But 4 those cant accept it,, become vice versa... nauzubillah...

I’ll not forgetting a 2 story in my life... those really teach me 2 believe that ‘if we always put ALLAH in every breath,, insyaAllah,, he always be with us... peristiwa menuju ke LCCT & perjalanan ke Seremban2 wif k-nilai members... biar la hanya orang yang berdekatab sahaja tahu what actually going on... =)

Ya Allah,, permudahkan hamba dalam ujian ini,, tunjukkan hamba jalan terbaik... hanya KAU tuhan yang ku sembah dan bersujud... Engkau maha mengetahui... Ya Aziz... KAU leraikan lah kerumikan yang ku alami ini... Amin...

tak patut... tak patut... ish2

Guys,, dont be SO mean!!!!! SO cruel... they come anytime when they think ned some one... i talking 4 my friends behave...

One day after quite long time we had no time spend together,, lastly we met one centre point of time to hangout... hehheee... we shared about our experiences along the time when we never faced each other b4... not because we r arrogant k... but because the time constringe between us,, made the distance quite long... hehehe... kidding friends... =) our condition are,, prohibition from any lies... we could ask anything we wishing for... when we asked about the personal life between her and her partner,, there were so many answers come out... what the cruel is,, her bf juz let her like that,, no reason,, only last word in the first Ramadhan... yes,, couple is not da good thing,, especially in this noble Ramadhan...nggeee,, but,, that guy suppose more consider la kan what that girl would feel... after a while we talking all kind of ‘laro’ things,, finally,, our second friends also facing da same thing like that girl b4... sooo kesian,, really... shes story lagi la extra kejam... after second time accept that feeless guy,, then that guy made the same mistake again and again... berhati tuuutttt betul la a guy like that... how come... xsedar diri... they think who they are??? More2 poor,, all those girls sooo kind au... and impossible for them to get nusyuz or what ever... never la... what they have knew only ‘love’ that guy s they could... n never become betray... but what those guys looking juz for fun and get joy... kot ye pon,, don’t play bout feeling wif naïf girls... find la someone kaki enjoy like you all... prikemanusiaan la skit...

Now,, that girl tried sibuk kan diri... even sakit... sian jiddan... T_T ade yang lag teruk... x nak cite r... human life 4: 2 be a Khalifah n beribadah padaNYA... surah Al-Baqarah ayat 30... n al-Zuriah ayat 56... insyaAllah kot... ngeee...

AQusss yang ini...

BUSSSSSY... ARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!! THIS DA WAY I CHOSE... FACE IT!!!!
'HUMAN DUTY IS TO LIFE,, NOT TO EXIST'